I have had no proper sleep for the past nights so, I have acquired these friggin' thoughts about stupid things...
...like I'm beginning to hate the life I have right now because it's so easy...so relaxed. The thrill of struggling for survival ran out.
...like I wanna run away from this place for sometime because the environment sucks. I mean, I'm tired of breathing in the dark and dirty exhaust of vehicles, I'm tired of sitting in with drunken companions, I'm tired of facing my students who are so pacute...
...like I wanna quit. I wanna stop listening to other people, stop pleasing them because it's too damn hard to pretend. For once, I wanna do the stuffs I want. To hell, I'll scream, I'll laugh, I'll cry to my satisfaction.
...like I wanna bust my head. I'm a fool, an ungrateful creature worth extinguishing. It's so unkind of me to have these thoughts lurking on my mind. Afterall, I'm the one who pleadingly asked God to grant these things on me.
...like I'm living life. This is life.
At least, the stupid me is learning.
